illness, weak & pitiful

i'm here again cus i missed writing on my blog

well i guess there's no one follow up my posts but it's alright cs i love writing em all.

ramadhan eventually gone, now we're in syawal. 

i got sicked once in ramadhan (fever, cough, flu & messed my mind up)

and once again in syawal.......bad fever. flu is the worst thing rn

there's no more holiday, school break..it's over.... but i'm just sitting in my home doing nothing

i extended my holiday for three days more.

how cool & how bad things happened, rite?

the cool things were,

no teachers

no books

no foes

in my life for awhile. muahaha 

meanwhile the bad things......

have to get myself up from living room to toilet to throw out everything 

do u get what i meant just now? runny nose, cough... there are mucus (hingus) ,itchy throat..kind of things

sighs, so there are loads of knowledge to be fill up in me, to catch up topics i missed out.
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just wanna spill out some of the burdens i'm carrying rn,

ada folio akaun. tkleh tiru even dgan dak skolah lain sebab cikgu ckgu under area sini will notice plus cikgu reminded us already not to copy frm anyone but do ask her :-(

dah ah account ni nti cam ada table byk smua, kena pkai laptop haih

dengan folio sivik lagi. gosh i'm a dead meat!!!!!!!!!

i'm d e p r e s s e d 

hahaha but still got the chance to waste the time

what to say, laziness can't solve the problems
but i'll tryna gives out the best, urge myself so one day every efforts from me'll pays off.

and last but not least, please pray for me. i'm still sick........

childhood & dreams.

i miss the old days where i'm just livin the problem free life. 

where i dont have to think much

where i just spent the day doing nothing

where i talk less or much no one will mad and put their resentment to me

where i can just spent the whole day laying on my comfort bed

and no one will ever blame me fr what i did

yet they just fun treating me

where mom and dad always trust in me

where i can do anything i want

and get everything i requested for

now 

people 

are 

judgemental

they look the outer beauty bfr they want to get knw u well

i wished to live in 

i-dont-care-whether-you-are-beautiful-smart-bitch-stupid-blur-ass

city.

to live in harmony, united and so peaceful

not overacted to appearance

having respectful neighbors

and no busy body like makcik makcik kat drama melayu that kind of things

  just bunch of caring people around. 

how cool that "fantasy" can be?

sighs. 

forgot one thing,

i'm just me.. a wishful thinker. 

p/s: i'm just an ordinary girl who needs love from Allah, ma abah, sisters & bros, friends.